I've been a fan since Rock you days!
Honestly, they attracted me with their image but let me really into them with their personalities and their story... I can't remember exactly when did I became a hardcore fan of theirs but I assure I am now... even My family seems against with my Kpop addiction but I had to do great in school inorder my familly won't blame Kpop and all.
Anyway...As the news breakout, I was home from school. I immediately check on AKP because I wanted to get fed with Kpop and of course its Jing's birthday so I also want to know what happened. I was so happy to see KARA, KARA, KARA on the most commented section but it turned out false as I read the title... Suddenly I felt pain. Something like there is someone crashing your heart. LOL... I admit I cried (a lot)! I was shocked! I even called my kpop friend just to let out all of it but in the end I felt the same... I remember how it feels exactly the same when Jay left 2pM (uhrrrgg! I don't want to remember!). I can't sleep that night and happy memories of kara keep replaying on my mind.. and whenever i came across with the idea of disbandment, I can't help but to get teary..[sorry I'm such a sensitive kind of girl. I get to cry easily..XD]I even spent load just to check news when I am in school. My friends even noticed that I look troubled and sad at that day..
Kara do have a special place in my heart ( not to mention a big one.) I've always admire them how strong they are and went through a lot of difficulties... They are not just my idol, my bias, my kpop girl group but they've already became an inspiration to me. so yeah! I was hurt a lot! I was nearly to gave up on them because of my confusion and all... They said be POSITIVE,ACCEPT THEIR DECISION It was hard. hard because I love them equally. There is a point that I need to choose between to give up or to stay but I ended up still a Kamilia.. Kara is too hard to let go of...
One thought I would like to share: " I think its better to feel when your group disband because of age reasons (like when they are already too old, marriage) than to disband because of rough reasons and to happened in the most unexpected time."
but now I feel at ease..