winx08

I miss KARA so much these days, ever since they started to be inactive last year January, which is also my birth month, i have become more and more lonely & i have reached the point of melancholy where i don't know what i am feeling anymore...i have lost interest in studies,career & many things & my performance have deteriorated too, its not helping much in my life where i need to think about my future,my career, my life ....its like i'm grieving .....but  I know I need to get my life back....also my energy, my intersest, my  enthusiasm to reach my goals or atleast be on my way to reach it....but still i'm HELPLESS.........

so what is looming over me or in my head or mind or thought or whatever....

is it melancholy? or sadness? or a tiny itsy bitsy of depression? or just dumbness? or just plain crazyness?