awww..i sorta understand..
i was born in korea, and i'm a 100% korean, so my family and i visit korea every single year for about 2 months every summer...
i have a lot of fun in korea with my family and everything...but i don't have any friends in korea..and all my cousins are in korea, but my oldest cousin is 9...which is sorta boring...and my friends have so much fun going swimming and stuff over the summer, and i lose connections with a lot of people over the summer
also, there's the language thing. i am fluent in korean, but it's just hard because of all the slang that everybody uses, and the hard words...
if it's hard for me, i wonder how hard it must've been for her then and now...she's so busy and sooo publicized..
hwaiting unnie! (: