red4summer

I'm Addict


T-ARA
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AOA
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Youngji + Baby KARA + APRIL
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APRIL
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Youngji + APRIL
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10 Apr 2018
First visit since last Dec, so has anything changed?
Teary eyes when I played Wanna & Mister today, and it makes me realize I do miss Kara, I miss the old days. TTTTT

5 Sep 2017
想着你      等着你

22 Jun 2017
One by one, all my groups are losing member(s).
How do I handle them?
I don't, really, as I have experienced the worst in Jan 2011.
Since then, nothing else can bother me much.
KARA made me but also destroyed me.

22 Mar 2017
What happened in Sep 2016 made me realize that they meant the most to me.
I am still willing to give up all I have, just for a chance to stay alive.
My stubbornness has caused me deeply and I am still hurting a lot.
Come May, I am giving all.

16 Jan 2017
Find my Girls.

13 Jan 2017
There is no life these days because there are zero activities from my Girls.
However, and luckily, Angels came back with Excuse Me (& Bing Bing) and it is a pleasant start to 2017 for red.

8 Sep 2016
6 years of fanboying, I hit my lowest level this week.
I am demoralized and have no desire to do anything.
I wanted to walk away and leave all behind.
I tried and opened up to friends but it didn't help.
It killed me because I worked extremely, extremely hard.
The girls make me proud and the fandom receives me well but it is hard to forget.
I cannot forgive myself.

I have lost the strength to spazz.
From now on, I will reduce my activeness.

22 Jun 2016
It was in the year 2015, I found myself at a crossroads.
To give up everything so to devote all time just on her.
She captivates me every time she dances, and she loves soy milk.
However, I didn't because I have already arrived at a stage where I can't leave T-ARA.




15 Jan 2016
watching videos which the 3 members performed on stages,
it brought back memories from the old days.

so many years we spent together
and finally today we have to say goodbye.

hammie sang "i love you" in the last karasia
and i wished i could say the same to her
for introducing me to kara.

they have moved on, so will i.
we shall go seperate ways and i wish them well.

gone are also the things which happened in the fandom,
red will continue to exist for Youngji and DSP.

8 May 2015
It took me a while to decide but red in Karaholic is going on hiatus.
It won't be a goodbye but the time frame is undefined at this point.

The self-imposed obligation to update Karaholic had taken a toll on me.
I realised that I didn't give a fair share amount of time to my surroundings and other matters.
To continue learning, I believe I can only achieve more by going out to explore.
I could have reduced my activeness but red isn't known for lurking.

Though I'll be away from Karaholic, I'm still committed to upload KARA videos.
Do check out the channels for uploads, they'll be uploaded timely.

Life is unpredictable but it makes life interesting too.
I do honestly regard this place as home because red grew up here.
However now the time is right for me and I've to seize the opportunity.
With a deep heart, I'm going to miss everyone dearly.

Where was T-ARA?
They had been overwhelmed by V-Queen's.
The date was March 2016 and T-ARA is still growing strong.


The much talked-about group but does it matter?
Our silence is the answer. Their smiles are all that matter.





Project by K-Queen's
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VgGcL-3EeKw
 

Project by V-Queen's

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nU91YcvW51c

What keep me going are
the understanding and the acceptance.


Red is Hers

Baby KARA

DSP Girls

KARA

4 May 2015
I need your help.

14 Feb 2015
it has been a long time since i last updated my page.
a lot has changed and i have learnt one thing, i should have never got too involved with the fandom and matters.
the best way to support the group is just to focus on the girls.
like i promised, as long as kara exists, red will be around,
though it doesn't necessary mean red will be active in this lovely forum.
red will be presented in another form of support.

1 Aug 2014
beautiful image of 4 is deliberately daubed with graffiti and is followed by a round of applause.
what kind of fandom am i joining? what kind of friends i have made in the past?
it was a fandom which i used to be proud, not anymore.
youngji, fighting!

3 Jul 2014
it has been 2 days and i don't want to kid myself because i miss somin so much.
i watched helplessly and i can do nothing now.

19 Jan 2014
119..
Seungyeon was the first Kara member whom I was attracted to. (She ticks all the boxes I have.)
Hara was the first Kara member whom I posted in the individual forum. (I do not agree with having individual forums but she made me visit them.)
Gyuri was the Kara member whom I spent so much time on. (The Kara leader but the most ignored member too. Hence I devoted most of my time to be Gyutiful.)
The first Kara couple I have is GyuriHara ("Because I found home in their forums.").
After 2011 dispute, I have GyuriSeungyeon ("Because as long as they exist, Kara continues.").
Was it coincident? The Kara members who chose to stay with DSP and continue the journey are them.
So when I first learnt of it, I decided probably it was time to return (to Karaholic).
I struggled initially but in the end, I came back.

119.. it was a day which left me a deep scar. However it is not so hurting these days.

8 Oct 2013
Has anything changed?
It feels awkward to logon for the first since 28th Nov 2012.
The future looks bleak, RED is not back yet.

17 Nov 2012
the BIGGEST regret i have here is taking my pal's advice of not to intervene in the "discussion" for the sake of the bigger picture but in the end my pal was "sacrificed". why can't people look at things from the outside too and not just the inside?

5 Sep 2012
Sometimes in life I do take things for granted such that I need constant reminders to realize how fortunate I am. I wish as I grow older and hopefully wiser, I do not need them any more because time clicks away and it will not come back.

17 Aug 2012
T.T

11 Jun 2012
i can't believe i gave out the chance to meet them in person. (it can only prove one thing) i thought i was but i wasn't (a faithful kamilia). is it coming sooner than expected? in need of a self evaluation soon..

19 Jan 2012
a year has passed since 19th Jan 2011, how do i feel? or what do you know?

arriving at the stage of life where i realized that i can have zero friends because i'm blessed with a lovely family and being a passionate RED, i'm very satisfied. however the day is nearing.. not that it's finalised but.. i'm prepared.

24 Nov 2011
it has been exactly one year (365 days) and it's still so hard to say goodbye..

21 May 2011 (i chose this date to update for a purpose.)
some people may question why i declared i don't have a favourite kara-member but everything about red is so gyutiful. that's because a lot of fans are not showing respect to the kara leader. today is the birthday of the kara leader, park gyuri. so go ask yourself again, are you a kara fan or a kara-member fan?

5 Mar 2011
for past few days, i've been looping jcl pv & quite often i stared blank at the lovely girls. it's always followed by (or overwhelmed with) grief & loss. because of the dispute i've been ignoring the majority. even if they are back in 5, i don't want to deceive myself by saying everything is back to normal because i have sunk too deep. personally, damage has been done. it may take time or never.. but for sure red has changed.

25 Jan 2011
since 19th but confirmed today that original red has officially pronounced dead.

18 Oct 2010
feel like introducing myself today for those who don't know me, or do you? do you have a favourite? the first member that caught my attention was seungyeon, & then nicole whom was followed by hara, gyuri & jiyoung. it's perfectly normal to have a favourite but sad if the favourite is prioritised over the group. so do i have one? no, just in case, i don't have nor will i get one. they are as a whole, my dearest & the only favourite.

8 Sep 2010
did something which i shouldn't have but the worst is in realizing why i'm obsessed with koreans. it's trembling to know that the importance is different from what is thought. hope the day never arrives, or has it? i'm not a perfectionist so i need help, not from others but myself.

16 May 2010
normally what do you do when feeling down? for me, put on the earphones playing kara music & dig myself into individual forums, which i did today. i remember gyul said, "forget bad times, remember there're good times too." sometimes i question myself because i'm never a cyber manic.

what or where do you look for inspiration or direction when you get lost or when you question your decision? when i first got to know kara, i looked at their debut date & birthdays. one is the same as my best pal, one is a day before mine, one is a day before my anni, two when joined is my phone number & one is 3 days after the saddest day in my life i try desperately to forget. i know immediately, it's destined. as long as kara exists, i'll be around.

25 April 2010
finally after dedicated so many hours to the forum, i shall take a pause today to update my page instead. is there a limit to how much can i write?

i always wonder what's the main reason fellow kamilia comes navigating to other member page? so for my case is it because after reading my posts? (hope none of you is bored with my comments so far.) firstly welcome to my humble place, pleasing to know & have you here. you may not aware, but i appreciate your effort & intention to visit here.

where shall i start? kara or non-kara? what do you want to know first? oh well since i'm listening to secret world now, shall i start from talking about karaholic & its fellow kamilia?

on karaholic & kamilia..
i really wish to know the history of karaholic, its foundation & background of the board staffs. who are these wise people? are they still active here? what trigger them to come up with this excellent idea & actually make it happen? i must say the unconditional willingness of carrying karaholic this far is deeply felt & well appreciated. well done & congratulation to those people & staffs, this is a wonderful place to discuss & share dream with kara.

but pity not many kamilia share similar thought. most of them just choose to come & go, without leaving any noticeable trace. sometimes i wish if 10% of the members are only so passionate as the regulars, things will be very different here. or at least our beloved kara will be more successful now.

on beloved kara..
frankly speaking i don't have a favourite member. they are all dear precious to me. i know kara existence after a fateful september night when i found myself staring at seungyeon doing wanna at music bank. from then on, i started aimlessly searching internet for the song & group. slowly day by day, i began to dig deeper from youtube to karaholic. now the rest are history.

i don't know how late i am, but hopefully it's only the start of a long journey. i'm real thrilled about their future prospect. because i'm a late fan, i feel the need to study them from kara4. unfortunately i'm still lacking behind in watching their past videos as i have difficulty allocating time. worst of all, i feel kind of unfairness to nicole & jiyoung, because i have yet visited their personal forums in details. not that i show favoritism but there are so many threads & hence decided to go top bottom.

bit about myself..
i don't easily go crazy about things but when i do i'm really go extreme. i love & enjoy what i'm doing now, coming to karaholic, supporting kara & sharing thoughts with fellow kamilia.

but sadly i'm afraid it'll be short-lived. i know myself too well because it always happens to me. the thought of it makes me real scared because i don't know when i'll run out of passion. i can't imagine the day when everything just changes. so i decide to stay online as often as possible doing what i love, and hence here i am updating my page. i'm really happy hanging around here. i sincerely hope the day never arrives, but i really don't know.

i'm kind of pessimistic person because life is so unpredictable. but saying these does not underdetermine my deep obsession towards kara. i'm proud today to be a kamilia supporting kara. i pray it'll stay that way forever.

not sure where to put these, so..
to admins/mods - you bring excitement & life to karaholic with all the updates & news at the very first moment. without the prompt updates, atmosphere in karaholic will be dull.

to uploaders - you add colours to karaholic. you don't know how wonderful it's to see those uploaded pictures, gifs & videos. they reveal more than words. the ability to see the girls visually is priceless.

to translators - you introduce voices to karaholic. without translation, news will be old when they reached karaholic. especially with tweet updates, they are like instant personal messages from the girls.

to others - no matter how strong is the fundamental, it still needs supports from everywhere.

thanks everyone.

goodbye for now, i will update more when the times are right.

"I have many people around me that love me and care for me, so I won't be easily bent by strong winds." - gyul
how often do we take things for granted without realizing it may be too late to turn back time or regretting for not doing more?
shall we start to appreciate for what we have now & to love more unconditionally?

grab the opportunity when it presents, hesitate it will be regret
worst of all only to realize it was lost long ago

where were you, i know we could make it right again

shared dream is shattered when affection is lost, the truth is pain.
life is unpredictable so cherish the memories & move forward, there's always hope.

sometime to realize love is when it's time to let go.

they represent my thoughts

forgiving & forgetting are not hard if one truly understands the importance of living in fulfillness.
remove the angers, heal the hurts & use the warm hands to hold those whom once hate, isn't it more meaningful?
apologising or saying sorry is an act of bravery too.
everybody makes mistakes. arguments & conflicts are unavoidable.
if it happens, take it as part of knowing to improve.
to survive any relationship with genuineness, there shouldn't have any hindrance.

your smile is my strength
your health is my happiness

i have my doubts (before) but it should be over soon.
thanks for keeping your & our dreams alive.