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  1. C H A P T E R 0 1

    Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You, too? Thought I was the only one."

    -CS Lewis

    I met him one day on the park and he was crying like a little girl. In fact, I did thought he was a girl.

    I was crying my hearts out. I was Jung YongJoo, a kid of 14 years old and am training to become a singer. That day, I was scolded by my singing instructor because I failed to reach the note she asked me to practice.

    I threw a rock at the pond and pouted since my hiccups are still here.

    Why are old people always easy to get mad? I still have other things to do other than practice my singing. It’s not that I want to become a singer; really… my mom wants me to be one so she sent me here in Japan to be trained.

    I looked at my left and saw a couple hugging while looking at the lake and cringed. Why are people always doing things like this in public? Shouldn’t they be doing it in private?

    I turned my head to the right and saw a pretty girl crying too. Well, that time I certainly thought he was a girl. He was wearing pants, a shirt and his face certainly could pass as a girl’s.

    “Hey, why are you crying?” I asked her… err, I mean him.

    She… I mean, He looked up at me with tearful eyes and I could guess he was no more than 2 years younger than I am. He had tears in his eyes so I took out my handkerchief that I never really use when I cry and handed it to him.

    “Here, don’t cry messily, use this.” I smiled at him.

    He looked up at me, “But onee-san, you’re crying too, don’t you need it?”

    He had an angelic voice that could put any girl under a trance. That was how charming he is even as a kid. I laughed lightly as I dubbed the handkerchief on his teary eyes; he blushed and took it from me, doing it himself.

    “So, why are you crying alone?” I asked and sat beside him.

    He played with the handkerchief for a moment before looking up at me, “Onee-san, can I ask why you were crying in the first place?”

    I laughed lightly, he sounded like a stubborn kid. “First, call me ‘onee-chan’, I’m not that old. Second, I’m crying because I got scolded by my trainer that I’m not training enough to be a singer.”

    His eyes widened, “Onee-chan is a trainee to become an entertainer too?!”

    I nodded and realized where this was going, “You’re a trainee too? From where?”

    “Johnny’s.” He answered simply and I understood well enough. “I got scolded because they said I wasn’t training hard enough.”

    “Well, I guess we’re on the same boat then.” I handed him my hand, “I’m Jung YongJoo, 14 years old turning 15 this year. You are?”

    “I’m Yamada Ryosuke, 12 years old turning 13 this May.” He smiled lightly and I know that anyone who would’ve seen that smiled would have fainted right there and then.

    * * *

    “HARA-YAH!” I screamed as I ran to Hara, trying to catch her and get my cap that she intentionally stole from me, “GIVE ME BACK MY CAP!”

    She stuck her tongue out at me, “But this cap looks pretty, Cole!”

    The girls laughed at us as they took a sip at their bottles, enjoying the 15 minute break we were given before we continue to practice for our performance.

    “Hara, my cap looks exactly like your cap!” I ran hard and finally caught her, tickling her to be able to get what I wanted.

    Hara laughed as she finally let go of my cap, she crawled to the bench, took a swig at the mineral bottle there and then wiped the sweat on her small doll-like face. She grinned at me.

    I rolled my eyes with a smile on my face, “Funny, Hara.” I took my own bottle, opened it and drank half.

    “You’re always overworking yourself, Nicole.” GyuRi remarked as she saw me walk towards the player and hit ‘Play’.

    I just grinned at them, “Well, you know how much I wanted to be a singer, right? So I guess I would always be doing my very best to be able to perform the very best.”

    I danced to the music, feeling the coldness and pain re-enter every vain in my body. I didn’t use to want to be a singer or an entertainer; it was my mom who pushed me to become one. She said she wanted to see me perform on stage and she would be very proud to have raised someone like me. I love my mom and that’s why I agreed to this.

    After practice, everyone piled in the van and tried to get a comfortable place as much as possible to be able to take at least 5 minutes of nap before we reach a set for an interview.

    Before our car moved, the van’s door opened and I saw our manager peep inside.

    “Girls, I have the list of people you would be guests with for Music Station.” She smiled, “NYC…”

    I didn’t hear what came after that. Ah, NYC. NYC. I guess he finally fulfilled his dream. He is popular now, really well-known with the girls I meet and people we pass by on the streets. I see him a lot on television too and the camera is always his.

    And this… is why I can’t forgive him. Forgive him for the hurt he made me go through. One of these days, I will make him regret ever betraying the promise we made with each other.

    “Anyway, Nicole, you like NYC don’t you?” Hara piped in and all of them looked at me.

    “What do you mean? I don’t even know who they are.” I answered as innocently as possible.

    Jing slapped her hands together, “Ah! Oh yeah! We passed by their billboard yesterday and I saw Nicole unnie looking at it till it was out of sight!”

    I wasn’t looking, I was glaring.

    “Oh psh, what are you saying?” I laughed like the actress I should be, “I don’t know who they are. I was probably just staring into space that time, Jing.”

    Jing nodded, convinced already.

    “Anyway, whatever, girls. The point is that they’re from Johnny’s so you should not make any connection with them that might cause rumors because it will destroy you and your image. JE is very strict when it comes to this kind of things.” She smiled.

    I nodded along with all of them.

    I know every well by what destroy meant, I came from being destroyed and is now walking up again.

    AN: Thank you very much for those who took interest in this fic (: As I've mentioned, I will PM only those who had replied in my previous post, if you do not wish to be PMed just say so (:

    BTW, here's a picture of Yamada Ryosuke. Yeah he's somewhat a dork. He's the boy who was staring at Nicole when Cole did the hip dance (;

  2. Because You're My Woman

    여자라니까

    Because noona is a woman, because you are my woman.

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    OST

    여자라니까 by Lee SeungGi

    P R O L O G U E

    Love chooses no age or nationality. I firmly believed that. I was your ‘noona’ or as you would use better, your ‘onee-chan’. Both mean the same thing and that is I am someone older than you, the only difference is that the first one is Korean and the last one is Japanese.

    I smiled silently to myself as I took a look at the Japanese newspaper on my hand. Of course, nobody knows that I can read, write and speak in fluent Japanese… probably because no one is supposed to know who I really am.

    Name
    : Nicole Jung

    Birthday
    : October 7, 1991

    Born and raised in
    : California

    All of those are true, I was indeed born and raised in California… but there was a secret that nobody else knows of. It is a secret only you and I and him knows of. It was a secret because I was forced by him to delete that part of my life permanently and live as if those 2 years of us together was just a dream.

    Never in a million years would I be able to truly forget that past between us and I would never, in a million years, forget how much you had betrayed me.

    “Cole! The van is ready; Gyul’s calling us for practice now!” I heard Hara’s voice from the door so I hurriedly hid the newspaper I was holding. I picked up my bag, took a look at my hair and smiled to myself.

    Only a few more days before we finally meet again, Yamada Ryosuke.

    AN: I know I have an unfinished fanfic somewhere in there but I can't stop myself with this idea that hit me while I was watching KARA's Mister performance in MS and NYC/Hey!Say!JUMP's Yamad Ryosuke's reaction. Anyway, please enjoy~

    BTW, does everyone knows who Yamada Ryosuke is?

  3. CHAPTER 5:

    I never fail to surprise myself either.

    Who knew, really, that I could go on for a week without crying for Jiyong? Who knew that I could pretend we weren't bestfriends? Who knew that I could talk to him civily and its all about business? Who knew that I could pretend that he isn't the one I love? Who knew, right? Because I certainly didn't. Neither did CL and she just cornered me the other day.

    “Gyul, why aren't you and oppa talking?” She inquired, touching my arm. “Oppa is really stressed right now and needs your help.”

    I glared at her, not because I'm mad at her for ignoring me for a lot of days but because she's accusing me of something her cousin decided. And the fact that she doesn't know what's going on inside of me.

    “You, Lee ChaeRin, will butt out of my business.” I glared, not wanting to repeat myself. I feel so tired already, looking for new recruits since Eric sunbae is not happy with KARA being 3 members only.

    She glared at me too, “Why are you being like this Gyul? What did I do to you?”

    “The thing is, you did nothing for me!” I rolled my eyes, “You stopped talking to me ever since Park Bom and those girls came to the scene. I bet, you don't even know what's happening to my life!”

    “I know you're ignoring JiYong because you're jealous of his girlfriend!” She yelled at me and I wanted to cry. How could she, my bestfriend, accuse me of that?

    I stiffened and picked up my bag, “For your information, I'm not jealous of Park Bom being GD's girlfriend, they deserve each other. And, I'm not ignoring your cousin, it was he who started it. It would be good for you if you pretend that JiYong and I were never bestfriends because your stupid cousin decided that I shouldn't be his bestfriend anymore!” And then I stalked out of the room.

    Nicole comforted me that day as SeungYeon bought some ice cream so that I won't feel lonely. I didn't get anymore cheering up when I got a text from Oppa.

    From: Prince Won SeungJae

    Message: Angel, I'm picking you up in 2 hours. I heard that there's 2 girls transferring at your school this week and I got their address, we're checking them out together.

    I smiled and replied back.

    To: Prince Won SeungJae

    Message: Okay oppa! Nicole won't be able to come, she has homework to finish. SeungYeon's on a date with someone I don't know (and I think TaeYang is following them). See you later!

    I fell ontop of my bed and Nicole went to seat beside me.

    “Leader, I think you're over-doing yourself.” She said, tapping my shoulder. “I may not know everything that's happening but I think I know enough that you're very tired. Do you want a vacation?”

    I smiled at her, Nicole is annoying a lot of times but she's sweet too. “Thanks for the concern Cole, but no, I need to do this.”

    She smiled, “Okay then, I'm gonna go and do my assignments.”

    And after 2 hours, I'm already walking towards the house of this girl whose name is Kang JiYoung (I don't like her name, I'm gonna choose a nickname if she gets accepted). Oppa is walking beside me, whistling to a tune that I do not know. He smiled at me when he noticed I was staring.

    “What Angel? Am I that irresistable?” He joked.

    I stuck my tongue out at him, “Ya wish.”

    We were entertained by JiYoung and she's really pretty and cute! And she doesn't seem to be faking it. I totally liked her and asked her if she wanted to be friends and if she wanted to be part of KARA. Of course, she agreed. Before we left, though, I asked her if she has a nickname.

    “Jing, people call me Jing. I prefer JiYoung but Jing is quite nice too.” She smiled, waving us good bye after I reminded her to come to my place tomorrow.

    We went to this Goo Hara's house next. If Jing was cute, I don't know what to call this girl. She's cuter than cute! And her voice is like a child's, which of course, makes it cute too. Although she's so thin! I already like her! And she's already acquainted with Shinhwa because SeungRi is her chilhood friend! I'm too excited.

    Oppa and I stopped at the park to sit down for a while. He smiled at me as he leaned in and poked me on the cheek.

    “Hey!” I protested, smiling lightly.

    “You seem to need some cheering up. What do you want to do? Want to eat the extremely delicious strawberry sundae?” He grinned.

    At first I wanted to say yes, because I love strawberry sundae...and then I felt so down as I remembered something.

    “PRINCESS! WHY ARE YOU CRYING?!?” A 13 year old hip hop boy asked me.

    I looked at him with my tears flowing, “Some girls...said...that...I am ugly...and that...I should...stay away...from...you...” I hiccuped, “And then...threw rocks at me....”

    He looked concerned as he held my hand, “Oww, don't worry Princess, you are beautiful. Let's go eat something!~ And then you can tell me who those girls are so I can yell at them.”

    I raised an eyebrow at him.

    “We're gonna eat the EXTREMELY DELICIOUS STRAWBERRY SUNDAE!” He laughed, “And then you can tell me who beat you up.”

    I smiled at Oppa. “Oppa, how about we eat babbingsoo?”

    We both bought our babbingsoo and started eating on the far end of the shop. And then SeungJae oppa looked at me sadly.

    “Angel, you know you can tell me anything right?” He said. And then I started crying.

    I don't know what came into me but his words were the words that I really needed that time. I mean, why won't I need it, right? I lost 3 of the most important persons in my life. They're not there for me anymore. Can you plame me for crying? Sue me.

    “I know that I'm just trying to run away from the memories but can you blame me?” I cried. “Oppa...it hurts. This is taking it's toll on me.”

    He looked at me and held my hand, “You're in love with GD.”

    I looked at him and laughed, “No, I'm in love with Kwon JiYong.”

    He laughed too. “I guess I should've guessed, huh? Why, what's happening Angel?”

    I tried to shake my head but he held my cheeks lightly as if saying that I should continue. “I can't oppa, I can't talk because I really need to forget my feelings for him. Need, not want. Because all my life I have been in love with him and all I got was heart ache.”

    Oppa patted my head and smiled. “There, there, don't cry Angel, don't cry. It must be hard but we'll do something about it.”

    I looked at him, puzzled.

    “Well, we're going to make you forget about Kwon JiYong.” He grinned

    “How?”

    He patted my head again. “We're getting you a temporary boyfriend who will show you everything about love and adoration. Someone who will show you how you should really be treated.”

    “Oh. Who are we going to use then?” I asked, smiling a little.

    He looked seriously at me. “Me, Angel, we're going to use me.”

    “O-oppa...” I didn't know what to say when suddenly the door of the sundae shop opened and entered Kwon JiYong and Lee ChaeRin. My heart ached again. “Okay, oppa, make me forget.” I felt the tears threatening to fall.

    He looked at what I was looking and then looked at me. “YES! YES! THANK YOU GYURI!” He suddenly exclaimed that caught the attention of many people, especially GD and CL.

    And they turned to us. And walked to our table. And stared at the both of us.

    “What are you doing here?” CL asked, raising an eyebrow at me.

    “GD and CL! So nice to see you and be the first one to know! I knowthe both of you are her bestfriends so I'm gonna tell you first!” Oppa pretended, grinning a lot as he talked to them. “GYURI AGREED TO BE MY GIRLFRIEND!”

    You should see the expression on both their faces. CL was in shock that her whole mouth fell open and is staring like a fool. JiYong glared at me.

    “Hey!” Oppa pretended to get upset. “Why aren't you congratulating us? GD! I finally found the girl that I'm in love with!”

    “C-Congrats.” CL finally let out, looking at me sadly.

    “I hope Ryu, you'll take care of her.” And then JiYong was gone, pulling CL together with him.

    Oppa turned normal again and looked at me, “Can I pass as an actor now?”

    I smiled at him, “Definitely. Try script writing too.”

    ***

    Oppa dropped me off and went driving away. As I was walking towards the doorstep when I saw CL sitting on it. I looked at her and she stared back at me.

    “Gyul...”

    And for the second time that day, I broke down crying.

    Why am such a fool when it comes to this things?

    ***

    AN: i know this is TOO late but I really had a hard time trying to write this chapter. Hope you are all still willing to read it.

  4. CHAPTER 4:

    Kwon JiYong is one heck of a dense person.

    He's been ignoring me for the whole 3 days ever since he guessed wrongly that I like Ryu. Oh come on! This is not gonna end us up anywhere.

    And my life is one heck of a problem right now. Sungja is gonna transfer school meaning she'll be leaving us and KARA. I know we haven't gone through a lot yet but she's been really good to me and to everyone that I feel so sad that she's going to be gone. I'm going to miss her so much.

    What tops it is that JiYong is still ignoring me. He doesn't call me or IM me or talk to me or anything. It's not like I betrayed him or anything, it was his stupid guess not mine, and I didn't even confirm it. He just answered like that and ran away.

    ***

    For the first time in 3 weeks, JiYong talked to me. And it wasn't even intentional, I suddenly bumped into this really pretty unni so I started saying sorry and she said it's okay and everything but I feel so guilty because...well, she fell down on the floor because of me.

    And then this guy suddenly runs towards us and helped her saying,

  5. CHAPTER 3:

    Kwon JiYong is the definition of EVIL.

    Yeah yeah yeah, I know I'm in love with him, I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH THE DEVIL! Sheesh, until when can I stop my heart (or mind) from thinking I'm in love with the devil?!?

    The two of us were to go to the beach because he kept on making me go (remember? He thought I was stressed out so he thought bringing me to the beach would be the best idea?) so at last I agreed because his voice irritates me so much. ANG GUESS WHAT?

    HE LEFT ME HERE ON THE ROAD!

    WHY YOU MAY ASK?

    Because! MinJung, remember her? Yes, because MinJung called him and asked him to go on a date with her! I can't believe the devil left me on the middle of the street in Seoul without a ride! You must be thinking, Go take a bus or taxi and go home. But no~! The devil just ran away without giving me my money! (He kept my wallet for safe keeping because I tend to lose it.) And now, I'm here with no ride and no cellphone!

    When I see that guy again, I promise you I'll cut his head off and--

  6. CHAPTER 1:

    Kwon JiYong and I go way back. Yes, way, way back when we were stil little kids that do not know the troubles of this big and cruel world. We were childhood friends that knows everything about each other.

    He was always so cool and confident of everything. He has a weird taste for clothes but on some point those clothes looks good on him and only him. He loves music and writing. He loves cooking too. He loves being a perfectionist. He loves his only sister and his parents. He loves leading. He loves me...but only as his bestfriend. Because you see, Kwon JiYong is one of those nice players.

    Actually I had a hard time trying to describe him. He was one of those guys that when he feels even just a small spark for the girl, he asks her out. And then when he feels the spark is gone, he'll break up with you in a really nice way. And you wouldn't be able to be mad at him because he was only being truthfull.

    To date, he had dated 17 girls, Min SunYe being the 17th.

    And her being the longgest he had dated, a year.

    I have no grudge against her, she is a really great sunbae and she's a lot like JiYong. He really did like her and she really did like him. But again, because they are so alike, JiYong thinks he's dating a twin, a girl version of him.

    I sighed as I had finally stopped running and sat on the bench. My tears were already dry but my heart was still aching...so all those years we spent together were nothing?

    I'm Park GyuRi, leader of KARA that consists of me, SeungYeon, SungHee and maknae Nicole. Everyone say that I look good, but I don't believe that, I don't have one of those Princess Disease. I'm responsible and I'm proud of that. I love helping my friends even though we aren't that close yet. I do not love cooking, I'm just good at it. And yes, you can guess, I'm in love with my boy bestfriend Kwon JiYong.

    I suddenly saw red roses fall on my lap and I looked up and saw JiYong all sweaty and breathing hard. He must've ran from the flower shop on the other street to here.

  7. Do You Believe in Happily Ever After?

    Because, I don't.

    PROLOGUE:

    "You broke up with Min SunYe?" I asked.

    "Yeah, I really like her...but...she's just not the one you know. But we're cool, still friends you know." He grinned at me, still eating the seaweed soup I brought him.

    I guess he doesn't remember what day is today.

    "Oh, how about Ahn SoHee?" I asked again.

    "SoHee's a darling, but she's too cute. I'd rather have her as a sister." He answered while gulping down the whole bowl of soup. "Hey that tasted great Gyul, you have a flair for cooking." And he gave me the thumbs up.

    I really felt heartbroken as he stood up and started playing with his piano.

    "JiYong... What day is today?" I asked, not looking at him.

    "hmm...May 21, why?"

    "O-okay..." He really doesn't remember. "JiYong, when's SunYe's birthday?"

    "August 12."

    "When's Sohee's?"

    "June 27."

    "When's Nicole's?"

    October 7."

    "When's SeungYeon's?"

    "July 24. Why are you asking suddenly?"

    I looked up at him with my eyes tearing up, "When's mine?"

    He stopped for a while...thinking...but then he looked at me, "Um, sorry Gyul, can't remember. When was it again?"

    I stood up with tears falling from my eyes. "Stupid Jiyong..." I walked next to him, "It's today." And then I walked out of his room.

    ***

    AN: hey! Started a new one, I know, so sorry. but I really wanted to finish Gyul's and JiYong's relationship.

  8. Epilogue:

    And I guess that's just how life is.

    Yes, this is Nicole Jung, a college student along with my friends. And yes, it had been 2 years already since Lee SeungRi became Seoul High's student. And why would I be here talking to you after 2 years? Don't you remember? Eric sunbae is going out of the army!

  9. CHAPTER 23:

    I am Lee SeungRi and this is the story of my life.

    I was a smart kid as everyone told me so. I mean, I was just 11 years old and I had already jumped so many grades. But you know, I feel so empty and just useless. I was just 14 years old when I became friends with Battle. Battle's sunbae is Shinhwa and everyone looks up to them. Who wouldn't? They are Seoul High's kings. They control the whole school and keep peace in everything.

    But, just a little after that, I stopped being a Battle member and started being friends with G-Dragon and his troupe, Bigbang. I still kept connection with Shinhwa though. And that's how I met her.

    She was like an angel sent from heaven. Sounds corny, yeah I know. She's HyeSung sunbae's neighboor and a member of a girl-group called KARA. She had this strong and bubbly personality that could make everyone fall for her charms in just a second.

    We became close friends. Everyone keep telling me that we look so good together even though we fight a lot and joke around a lot. But you know, I did fell for her. And Shinhwa, Bigbang and KARA were the witnesses of our relationship. But it was kept a secret because...I'm gonna graduate as a teacher. We were happy, especially since I graduated college earlier than all of them.

    She's a really smart person. So we were compatible even though we have our daily spats and teasing. But one day, everything turned out weird. I was assigned to teach at...Seoul High, her highschool. And everyone knows that it is forbidden for a teacher to have a relationship with a student. So we hid it.

    At first it was actually okay. We would meet up after school or during holidays. But I was really busy and so is she. It's weird that I have a girlfriend that only us and our close friends know.

    You could say I was jealous. Nicole is really pretty and really nice that a lot of guys asks her out at school. A lot of guys tries to send her gifts. A lot of guys keep on trying to hold her hand. I was jealous of course, who wouldn't be?

    And she's sad too, I can tell. I could sometimes hear her talking to Eric sunbae how she wanted to hold my hand at school, how she wanted to scream to everyone that I'm her boyfriend and she's my girlfriend and we love each other. She always tells him about those drama she watched about the guy bringing her to the top roof and they eat lunch. She tells him about those Korean dramas where the guy would ask the girl during lunch and everyone would clap their hands. She wanted a normal relationship, but she didn't push me to have it. She kept up with me and accepted me for who I am because I know that she loves me like I love her.

    Eric sunbae really like her. He takes her as an adopted sister so I know that Eric sunbae would not let it go that Nicole wants something but she cannot have it. So I know that when Eric sunbae asked or ordered Bigbang to transfer to Korea High, he has something in mind.

    I know yet I decided to ignore it. I asked and begged JiYong hyung who I know loves Nicole as a sister to pretend to be her boyfriend. I did this so that guys would stop following her and so even though not completely fulfilled, she would have a boyfriend that would hold hands with her, walk her to class and protect her. Even though it isn't me, I complied.

    But I guess everything just doesn't go the way I plan it. I forgot how JiYong hyung is popular to girls. So when this new girl transferred and she's the leader of this stupid group that targets boys they like and make the girlfriends suffer, I was scared for Nicole's safety when that girl targeted hyung.

    I know Bigbang would take care of it. I know JiYong hyung would take care of it. I know Shinhwa sunbaes would take care of it. But for once, I wanted to save Nicole. I wanted to be the one that would protect Nicole. So I decided to make SeoJin take her focus away from hyung.

    But it was a stupid move, I know. Sometimes I think all those smartness is killing my brain cells one by one. Because I just hurted Nicole and made everyone mad. And not just that, SeoJin believes that I really do like her.

    She was actually a nice girl. She likes to hold my hand and walk with me. But I don't like her at all. Once she had her target away from JiYong, I wanted to cut it off. But Nicole saw me and SeoJin walking hand by hand. I knew she was hurt because we haven't even done this before. So I decided that I really am going to end it with SeoJin and I'm going to talk to Nicole and tell her.

    But that night, when I called Nicole to meet up. SeoJin saw me and she ran to me and kissed me as if I really was her boyfriend. I was stiff and I was mad, so I told SeoJin that exact night that I'm breaking up with her. SeoJin took it okay, but she was mad, I could tell.

    The next day I heard Nicole telling GyuRi all the hurt that she had been going through. It pains me so much tht even when we were at school, I hugged her. I decided that it was a secluded corner so no one would see us.

    Oh how wrong was I. Just as my relationship with Nicole is building up again, SeoJin had to threaten me and always try to talk to me, saying she knows something that will destroy me. I ignored it at first but in the end, during Hara's birthday party...while Nicole was in the wash room, she knocked in the door so Hara accidentally let her in, she didn't actually make any trouble but her words made me want to go out.

  10. CHAPTER 20:

    I can't live no more but I can't stop no more~

    The song on the radio keep on bugging me. It was G-Dragon's Breathe and it's making me choke, a lot. Why do they have to remind be about what had happened?

    “Cole, JiYong is calling everyone to eat.” Hara poked her face in the classroom door.

    “Okay, coming.” I smiled as I walked slowly, not really feeling anything at all but just misery that I'm suffering.

    As I was walking down the hallway, I saw SeoJin and she was smiling. A smile I know that won't be doing me any good. But I couldn't care anymore, everything in my whole love-life had went down the drain ever since she came into the picture. But her smile just got wider when the speaker of the school rang.

    ”Calling the attention of Mr. Lee SeungRi of Science department, please come to the office immediately.”

    I actually wondered what it is for, this time, maybe, I wouldn't know. But then again, he'll tell Bigbang and Bigbang will tell me...NO, I shouldn't care anymore.

    SeungRi appeared from nowhere and looking angrily at SeoJin who followed him into the Office. What exactly is happening, I do not know and I'm not planning to know.

    I walked hurriedly towards our table and everyone immediately stopped the heated discussion they were into. I was curious on what it was but they never continued it. I realized it has probably some connection to Ri that I do not want to know.

    “So, it's Friday, what's your plan everyone?” I asked, smiling just slightly like nothing is wrong.

    “I'm taking Hara out to the beach, it's like, our 400th day today.” TOP said as he kissed Hara's forehead who slapped his hand shyly. I smiled bitterly, feeling tears were gonna form in my eyes soon.

    “Good idea! Congratulations to the two of you~” I clapped my hands happily then turned to Dae and Jing, “How about the two of you?”

    “Carnival!” they both exclaimed happily.

    “Oh the new one on the block?” I asked because I heard it was fantastic.

    “Yep, we have been wanting to see that for sooo long!” Jing clapped her hands and held DaeSung's arm. Okay, bad image. I blinked hurriedly, not wanting to see tears.

    “How about Ham and TaeYang here?”

    “I'm taking her to meet my parents.” TaeYang smiled so sweetly at her that I had to turn my head immediately because I'll be tearing up in just a second.

    “GyuRi?”

    “I'm gonna do assignments tonight.” She forced a smile.

    “No date with JiYong?” I teased but she just looked away and I felt bad.

    “Nope, I'm gonna take my favorite dongsaeng out. Nicole, we are going to dinner at my house tonight.” JiYong looked at me and it meant final.

    “What is all this for?” I looked at JiYong's dining room and it was gorgeous!

    He smirked. “Well, it's G the Dragon we're talking about so I made it perfect. So, what do you think dear dongsaeng? Aren't I the Girls' Desire?”

    I elbowed him and laughed. “Oh, you are the Girls' Desire alright. Girls' Desire to be their cook! The food smells amazing!”

    “Funny Cole.” He eyed me but then smiled softly, “I cooked it myself, let's go and seat please.”

    We both sat and started dinner immediately. The room was full of silence, not awkward but nice. The one you get during family dinners. It was finished hurriedly and JiYong cleaned it and asked me to go to his bedroom.

    Hid bedroom you probably haven't seen, but its the best. Technically, its called a bedroom but I don't think it should be called one.

    See, when you open the door to his 'bedroom' you see a small room that looks like a living room complete with TV and sofa and 5 doors. The first door leads to his bedroom, its just a room with a bed and a table for the lamp, very small. The second door lead to his big closet, and when I say big, I really meant big, its even bigger than mine. The third and middle door lead to the balcony, the balcony has this beautiful table and chairs. The fourth door lead to his library that is also his writing sanctuary. The last door is his studio, its built to be soundproof. So...do you call that a bedroom at all? He decorated it himself and it's so GD-ish.

    I opened the room and found everything in order, ever the cleanfreak JiYong is. Then I walked towards the balcony and sat at the first seat I could find. The night is dark and cold, it reminds me of everything I had just gone through.

    “Hey Cole,”It was JiYong and he handed me a cup of coffee.

    “Why did you ask me out tonight, oppa?” I asked, embarrassed I began calling him oppa again. Because, see, I also call him oppa when I'm in desperate need of an older brother I never had.

    “About SeungRi-”

    “Its over.” I said firmly, taking a sip.

    “No, I meant, what happened exactly?”

    “He explained everything to me. Everything from the beginning till the end and all those stuff. And then...he broke up with me.” I felt my insides crumble as I said those words.

    “I'm sorry...” Jiyong looked at me apologetically.

    “He broke up with me!” I screamed when I heard oppa apologize, it isn't supposed to be him apologizing to me! “He said things and explained and ranted and then broke up with me! I HATE HIM!” And then, tears fell from my eyes.

    JiYong pulled me into a hug, caressing my hair like a brother I had always wanted. “It's okay...”

    “I freaking hate it that he doesn't let me say anything, that it feels like all he wants from me is for me to be beside him. Why can't he ask for what I think? I have voice too...” I cried what I wanted to tell SeungRi, “I wanted to tell him that I love him and that I will still stay by his side whatever happens, that this is just a small problem and it will not stop me from being with him... But he decided by himself.”

    “I know, he told us.” He patted my head as I looked at his face. “He told us what he's planning and don't worry he'd not kill himself or do anything stupid like the last time, apologized err begged us, got a beating from everyone except HyeSung sunbae then asked us not tell you.”

    “Huh?”

    “But tell you what, he told us that his plan involves that he'd still complete Eric sunbae's wish err order.”

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    AN: Hey! Sorry for bringing really late updates now, I'm kinda busy with school and stuff. I'd probably finish this story in 2 weeks or less.

    sakuya28 Thank you for giving time on reading my story. I had already decided on the ending but is debating again on whether I'll continue with it (:

    semi-fly SeoJin had started her 'plan' if it was obvious...I'm not actually sure.

  11. CHAPTER 19:

    I never thought that...

    SeoJin slapped SeungRi hard that left his face, red. She was mad, so mad that she even kicked him on the foot. And SeungRi, never said a word.

    “Tell me you are lying! Oppa! Tell me!” SeoJin kept begging him, her eyes puffy-red that it hurts me because I know she had been crying.

    “Nicole and I...have been dating for 3 years SeoJin. I'm sorry.”

    She glared at me, “You wh0re! You're dating JiYong and oppa at the same time?!”

    “No, I just asked hyung a favor to pretend to be her boyfriend so that boys will leave her.” SeungRi said as he looked at me, “And it was such a big mistake.”

    “Oppa! Why are you doing this to me?!” She screamed again.

    “Again, SeoJin, sorry. But I was just using you so that you'll leave hyung and Nicole alone.” SeungRi shook his head, “I'm sorry, it wasn't that deep, you'll get over it.”

    A slap again. “I'll get over it.” She scoffed as she walked away.

    Everyone rushed to our sides, they were just hiding from view.

    “Are you okay?” They all asked SeungRi.

    I stood beside him as JiYong shook his head.

    “Maknae, you know this is all wrong right?”

    They left us to talk. It was an uncomfortable silent as he treated his cheeks with ice. I felt uncomfortable as the ice touched his cheek because...it's all my fault.

    “Seung-”

    “I'm sorry for bringing you in this Cole, it's all my fault.”

    “No-”

    "If only I didn't bring hyung in the picture, SeoJin would have never brought you in this mess. Hyung would have just taken care of SeoJin like he did with other girls.”

    “Tha-”

    “But I begged him to do it because of jealousy and it just backfired. You got hurt, and not just one time but a lot.”

    “It's-”

    “It would have ended with BigBang or rather, hyung fighting with SeoJin but I just had to meddle with it and pretend I like SeoJin so her affection will turn from hyung's to mine. I'm so stupid.”

    “Not-”

    “I was afraid you'd break up with me over it so I planned to explain things to you. But I guess, I messed up a lot because you didn't show up. I'm glad you didn't though because SeoJin kissed me that night and I would have killed myself if you had to see that.”

    “Actu-”

    “Then when we got back together, I told SeoJin I didn't like her and for her to leave me alone. But she didn't get it because all day, SeoJin had been knocking on Hara's house. Everyone was afraid you'll know but I asked them to keep quiet and let me handle things.”

    “But-”

    “But, SeoJin got mad and started calling me to. So I decided to talk to her and tell her its really over. But she's so stubborn.”

    “I-”

    “I wasn't planning on telling her about us, but you showed up and I guess I just blurted it out like always wanted to. I messed up, big time.”

    “That-”

    “This time, I don't know if things will be back to normal. I know SeoJin won't stop, she may give up on me but she'll still plan on getting revenge because I played her. And again, you're in this mess.”

    “I'm-”

    “She won't stop and you'll get hurt.”

    “SeungRi, I'm telling you that it's-”

    “Nicole, I'm breaking up with you.”

    “-okay.” I was surprised at what he said. My eyes widened before I was able to speak again. “W-What?”

    "I'm breaking up with you. Not because I don't love you anymore but because I can't take the fact that you're hurting because of me." He looked at me, his eyes pleading.

    "And you think I won't be hurt when you leave me? Well, I am." I gulped. "Fine. Leave me. Let our 3 years just be erased in my small brain."

    He smiled at me bitterly. "If that's how you want to forget me. Go ahead. Just forget me...but not completely."

    He left me alone. He, Lee SeungRi, left me, Nicole Jung.

    And now, I lost the other while I have to face the other.

    I wasn't even able to say what I wanted. That I love him and I'll stay with him even though all this craziness is happening between us.

    He didn't give me a chance to even prove that I love him. It's always him.

    And I cried.

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    AN: Okay. Really late. Comments? Suggestions? What do you think? I was really busy, this might seem out of place. And if you remember, that's from the prologue.

  12. CHAPTER 17:

    My heart crushed into million pieces at that sight.

    Tears formed in my eyes and I felt my whole body weaken. I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't fight anymore. Not when you see your boyfriend kissing someone else. I was afraid, for the very first time, I, Nicole Jung, was afraid of losing my boyfriend.

    I stopped in front of Shin HyeSung sunbae's house. I knocked on his door and as soon as he opened it, I ran to him and cried. He let me in the house and in the living room while he went to get water.

  13. CHAPTER 16:

    Would I be able to believe whatever SeungRi tells me?

    It's Monday afternoon and I was walking down the hallway with Hara. GyuRi has her Chess Club, SeungYeon has Choir, JiYoung has Cooking Club. While Hara and I were two lonely birds~ Although I don't know where the word 'bird' came from, I'm worried for my sanity. I've been weird ever since last Friday.

    SeungRi and I haven't talked yet, JiYong made sure of that. He said something like,

  14. CHAPTER 15

    What SeungRi uttered hurts more than the million of insults SeoJin threw at me.

    He was walking with her. I could see it with my own two eyes. SeoJin just took SeungRi's arms and walked away with him. I was taken from shock. What exactly is happening? And before I knew it, tears were running down my eyes.

  15. CHAPTER 14:

    I just know that today will be different from the others.

    No, its not because I might get killed by someone who is stupid. But something, I know something will happen that will change my life...forever? I sound so corny but that's exactly what I feel right now that I'm surrounded by Shinhwa sunbaes.

    We were walking around the ground, playing and eating. Andy sunbae and Jun Jin sunbae were eating cotton candy. DongWan sunbae was busy taking pictures. MinWoo sunbae was flirting with this girl that I had to drag him away. And HyeSung sunbae's arms is hooked with mine. It was a good day out, everyone was definitely happy.

    “YA HYESUNG-SUNBAE! HOW DARE YOU TAKE MY GIRLFRIEND?!?” I saw JiYong running with this cute little smile on his face. He stood in front of me, gave me a kiss on the cheek then hugged me. “Hey there love, what's up?”

    HyeSung-sunbae and I looked at him as if he was crazy. JiYong looked behind him where I saw SeungRi staring at us intently. I wonder what's going on...

    “Shinhwa sunbae, I need to talk to you.” He announced and they all followed him in one corner of the gym.

    I started to follow when someone held me back, I looked. “ChaeRin, why?”

    “No, don't listen. It's not time for you yet.” She looked worried, along with all her members.

    “But-”

    “Seriously, not yet.” Dara unni piped in and looking worriedly at SeungRi's direction again.

    A little over an hour with Shinhwa and JiYong gone, they came back. All looking extremely pissed over something. I wanted to ask why, but of course, they would not tell me.

    I held onto JiYong, “JiYong, what's wrong?”

    He smiled at me, “It's not time yet, princess.”

    It was 1TYM's turn. But only Teddy oppa and BaekKyung oppa were present. They said it was because the other half of 1TYM has a meeting somewhere. Teddy oppa and BaekKyung oppa had already stopped 4 girls from SF from almost kidnapping me.

    Freaks.

    What would they gain from stealing me? JiYong? Heck, I wasn't even JiYong's freakin' girlfriend!

    Lunch time. All of us created a somewhat picnic space near the river, it was a 30 minute drive away from school but during lunch break we are allowed to go. There were lunch boxes, sandwiches, ice cream (as requested by TOP oppa) and some more cakes.

    Unfortunately, 1TYM and Shinhwa had already left after eating their share of lunch so it was just us KARA, WG, 2NE1 and Bigbang eating dessert.

    “YA SEUNGHYUN! EAT ALL MY ICE CREAM AND I'M SERIOUSY GOING TO KILL YOU!” Guess who that is...it's dear Hara of course!

    “Oh pleaseeeeeee? I rpomise I'll be good!” TOP oppa looked at her with those puppy dog eyes that would make you think twice of everything.

    I looked away because...I'm jealous again?

    SeungYeon and TaeYang were hugging on the farthest corner. JiYoung and DaeSung were talking closely. Yes, Hara's plan almost succeeded because they are couples now. Well, almost because GyuRi was seating with Bommie unni while I...sat beside JiYong who had his arms around my waist.

    “Cole, here, eat this cake.”JiYong smiled, his smile is so contagious so I just had to eat the cake. “You looked so troubled Princess, what's up?”

    I grinned at him, “Nothing oppa.” I knew he was surprised I called him oppa, because after all, I only use that whenever...I feel troubled.

    He was about to ask me something when Wonder Girls screamed.

    “THEY'RE COMING!” SunMi shrieked.

    Everyone hurriedly stood up and went to their places. I sighed. Why is this happening to me?

    “2NE1 and KARA, back please, make sure Nicole does not go and sacrifice herself.” JiYong said before kissing me on the cheek. “Princess, wait here okay?” And then he went to his place at front.

    Wonder Girls stayed in front of me but behind Bigbang. “Nicole, do not think of sacrificing yourself. Sassy Formation is not known for being soft. When they take you, they make you suffer like hell.” YooBin told me, I nodded as I felt SoHee hold my hand.

    “YongJoo, don't worry, everything'll be fine.” She said.

    2NE1 and KARA nodded their head beside me.

    “Well, everyong guarding Nicole I see.” SeoJin smiled bitterly, “Is she that helpless?”

    “Shut up Park.” SunYe glared.

    “Well, if it isn't Jiyongie's ex-girlfriend, the perfect girl Min SunYe! So tell me, how does it feel to have JiYong as a boyfriend, have him leave you then make you guard the girl he's dating now? Doesn't it feel dirty?” SeoJin pouted teasingly.

    SunYe glared as I felt everyone tense up. “Shut up. It doesn't feel anything because atleast I was able to be loved by him rather than pushed everytime.”

    “Funny, SunYe. Oh and if it isn't little SoHee, how's that crush on JiYong going?” SeoJin looked so disgusted.

    “I do not like JiYong anymore.” SoHee grtitted her teeth.

    “Right~” SeoJin didn't looked convinced as she rolled her eyes and stared at Gyul now. “OH HI PARK GYURI!”

    “Hi yourself SeoJin.” Gyul said bitterly.

    “Oh, shouldn't you be on my side? I mean, you like JiYong so so much but he ends up dating one of your bestfriends.”

    I wanted to scream at her and pull her hair off when GyuRi suddenly leaped forward, almost crushing all of KARA and 2NE1 with her. Everyone was surprised.

    “SHUT YOUR DIRTY MOUTH SEOJIN! YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO LIVE!” We tried to stop her as Bigbang (especially Jiyong) looked worriedly at her. “LET-ME-GO!”

    “Stop GyuRi, this is not going to help us!” SeungYeon screamed at her.

    And while at our most vulnerable state, Sassy Formation attacked. Unfortunately for us, they have at least 10 man followers who appeared out of nowhere and started attacking Bigbang and us, girls. ChaeRin, the best fighter stayed by my side.

    “NO! I NEED TO FIGHT CHAERIN!” I screamed as I tried to run after JiYoung who was fighting 3 members from Sassy Formation.

    “No, Cole.” She said.

    “BUT THEY ARE GOING TO GET HURT!” I screamed and I immediately regretted that because SeoJin finally found me.

    “Let's go Jung, so your friends will stop hurting.” SeoJin was about to reach for my hand when ChaeRin knocked her off with her powerful fist. “WHAT DID YOU JUST DO WH0RE?!?”

    “Leave NICOLE ALONE!”

    And they started punching each other, I wanted to help but everyone. Jiyong was fighting 3 men. TOP was fighting 2. Taeyang and Dae was fighiting 1 each. Wonder Girls were fighting 3 men together. Dara, Bom and MinJi were fighting 4 Saassy Formation members. KARA was helping JiYoung with the 3 other SF members. And here, CL was fighting SeoJin.

    When suddenly, CL was on the ground after a hard blow from SeoJin.

    “CHAERIN!” Everyone one of us screamed but soon returned to fighting those guys. I feel so guilty now.

    “So Jung, all alone now huh?” She grinned as I felt her hands on my cheeks, slapping it hard. “Now come with me so you can save your dear friend ChaeRin.”

    I punched her hard and she screamed. She started to pull my hair and I felt JiYong's gaze on me so I started to tackle SeoJin on the ground.

    “GET OFF ME JUNG!” SeoJin screamed.

    “NOT-UNTIL-YOU-GET-YOUR-STUPID FOLLOWERS-TO-LEAVE MY FRIENDS-ALONE!” I slapped her real hard everytime I said those words. And due to my weakness she pushed me off and suddenly got ontop of me, punching me real hard.

    “THIS IS FOR EARLIER YOU WH0RE!” She was about to aim a real hard punch on my nose when someone screamed.

    “STOP!”

    It was Lee SeungRi.

    Knowing it was a teacher, all SF members and their crew, except SeoJin, ran away from the scene and leaving our crew bloody and tired.

    He went to where SeoJin and I were standing. I thought he was about to go and help me, but the again, Lee SeungRi always never fail to amaze me.

    “Park SeoJin, would you like some help with those bruises?”

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    AN: Oh sorry for the REALLY late update! I was soo busy the past days. I'll make a reply to you guys next chapter, I promise!

    Thank you so MUCH for reading!